I’ve long thought about the direction that humanity has taken and specifically about the path that I’m taking. This seems especially important amidst the chaos and destruction of the current cultural mindset. I feel that the changes that I’m going through are an opening. I also thing that many other people are thinking about how to change. It is exciting to me to participate in the transformation of humanity.
I’ve found that when I participate directly with the dominant society, I become filled with pain. This is the one reason that I followed the climbing life for so long. It was the only way that I could find to be happy. Yet it was not enough to fulfill all my human needs in the long run.
I left the climbing life because I needed to in order to grow and learn. That was 5 or 6 years ago. My journey through society and relationships was grueling and painful. I succumbed to the usual traps of debt and over working.
I am attempting to process and distill what I learned from that journey. And let me tell you… I never want to do that again!
I have felt time and time again the desire to drop everything and flee. I believe that my response is a healthy emotional response to that which is unhealthy in our current cultural paradigms. So I’m back on the fringes of society where I’m much happier. Perhaps I can help others who’s psyches have pushed them to the fringe as well.